Destined for Hell?

Im a first born, a loving but selfish soul
Woe is me, no longer with pity and frozen cold
Im a left hand, I should cut it off to kill a curse
Im nasty and mean in cranium dreams.
I follow the rules for show, then break them slow.
I hide. I fear. Im locked up, hypocrite
An alien I am, extraterrestrial being, no ending
Im just begining.

 How did a good picture get spoiled, I fear myself.

I fear the voices of hate that doth much love

Sometimes I feel like im destined for hell!
Theres a dark side inside thats surfacing slowly
its always been in me for as long as memory
I hate it! I love it! I cant deny it! I cant hide it no more!
Its calling my name, telling me I dont belong, somethings wrong
im going through changes, never thought I would, could
Im starting to see the danger outside of good.
My heart is saying, I shouldnt trust people

really? Cause all I see is evil, the world is evil.

If you only knew the half of it, a humble soul with one hole

Father please forgive me for the things I cannot change- 

to accept the things I cannot rearrange

I know not what I do, or think- im holding for dear life.

Ups and downs, smiles and frowns

happy today, sad tommorow

im in love with an endless sorrow, my lifelong horrow.

thats gets me high without drugs or wine

I touch the sky only to fall down to earth
Am I a pyscho or psychotic, what did I do, a good guy
Or maybe im not, the tables turn.
I dont understand this new me, hes, hes tricky.

I need a Parachute to catch me, help!!

Im falling, im falling, from the sky

woe unto the inhabitants of the earth.

he could be my friend, this friend, whatever he is- I dont know
Listen to Jesus as he laughts, hes a monster too just like you!
no goody goody shoe. Think im nuts, continue to
I hear the evil crawling, Ive never been so scared
Could the truth about myself be what Ive always feared.

Mythical_Poet

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