Life Motions

I admit
ever since I could remember,
school days was good days
but on many days I felt out of place,like
I never really understood myself, sorta.

See
I felt like Clark Kent must a felt in his high-school
days, just a nobody, with a history as haunting
as a fiction horror movie very cloudy and bruisy
walking around without a proper clue of who I am.

Truly, I must write my story since this experience
in my place of residence has affected my existence.
Now I look back and laugh- its so funny
was never the 'cool' kid in school, but was always
the kid very quiet yet mentally wanting popular friends
 like what I would do to be fun too.

I guess I just wanted to fit in, be a regular kid
but was only kidding myself like I wasn't
different, unusual or 'wonderfully made'. Boy
I was too serious at times,its ironic I
simply wanted to be in the 'in-crowd'
when all I had to be was me! My own crowd.

My Self esteem gauge was threatening and it showed.
In reality my high-school mentality was all culturally
based on spirituality,it was socially a falsely
self perceived identity of a younger me
and the world I see.

My childhood felt like a
dream in which I could not wake, it was fake.
I dont even remember fully the mystery
of it all. I couldn't see the truth in-front of me
still my personality never let me be
what I was not-a follower. Instead

the question deep inside my mind
was who am I, where do I belong
it felt most days very distant and strong,
cause I never felt apart
of anything totally- but little did
I know it would all make sense one day like
nothing lasts forever-its sad.But its the truth.

And we all go through life motions
take this poetry literally, its a true story
cause where im from is not fully known to me
am an alien walking and talking so to speak, cause
fate has done a great injustice to me, but its
okay for with great power comes great responsibility.

Mythical_Poet
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