I Run From My Calling

I HAVE THE GIFT OF PROPHECY (I run from my calling)

I have the gift of prophecy. I know this in my heart of hearts.
The holy spirit has moved on me and that is my own testimony.
I am a witness to the power of God and have heard his own voice.
As a child I had dreams of revelatory nature. Something was
just different with me. I was just so fascinated with God.

But unfortunately lately I have been...

a very stubborn child.

I have not been dedicated to the word like I should. I have not

been spending the time to be at the level that I should be at.

I have grown weaker than I should be.

I am not 100 % open to Gods will. I want to serve God 100%

but there is something else I cling to. I dont know what it is.

I have a natural knowledge of the word that cannot be denied.

I have a natural ability to speak and an even more natural ability to write.

But I have been slacking towards God. And its a scary thing.

Cause I want to give him 100%. Part of me does.

I am sensitive in this way.My thoughts and intents are Godly

but there is another pull. Have mercy

I dont know what to do, I need time to think and wrestle.

Im run away from my calling cause im not ready.

Mythical_Poet