How I Started To Write

HOW I STARTED TO WRITE


I dont consider myself brilliant much
but what is it about me and words?
I dont understand this flow
My first poem was written at nine years
I dont remember what it was  really

but I could easily rhyme words at that age

I knew how to spell very well as well

My note taking abilities was excellent
Still I never understood my potential

I never knew I would take up writing
Just like anyone curious I was searching
I really had no clue of my ability whatsoever
I use to pray for God to show me my talent
So I guess he did?
Sabbath school teacher would ask us
So I asked God cause I never knew.
To make a long story short here I go
Writing was always in me
Expression always wanted an outlet
I dont know if my left hand played a role

but sooner or later I had to face myself

I held it back , I ran away from me

eventually it forced itself out

I dont do it for show I do it for ME

I am very selfish as most writers r

I always say I never chose to write

I use to consider it very boring in fact

But later on I had a change of heart
was 2007 that I really attempted the craft
It was awkward at first to find my voice
my style had no compass or map to guide

I wrote and wrote and wrote until I realized
this is cake
I kept on writing and writing until YES
I opened myself more and more awakening
I realized my talents were dormant
I realized I had something rare

That I owned  a wild imagination
A peculiar ability to formulate
And an introvert nature fitting the like
I realized that I was the way I was for a reason
I realized my personality was not a mistake
God made me this way and now I knew

It made perfect sense

The reason why im a moody soul

The reason why im very emotional

was all linked to my talent and gift

It was why I always loved music and words

why I loved the bible stories
and would have dreams about Jesus coming
It was that sensitivity that proved to help me

It was why I would think God is watching
I would see things in the clouds  as a child
I worked and worked and worked at it
I got better and better and better at it
Much was going on in my life at the time
I was frustrated with college, almost quit
But poetry lent me a helping hand
I switch my major to English, yes I did
And found other people just like me
I worked on it sorely but hey it was fun
I enjoyed all of my classes very much


Poetry was the vehicle that transported
my thoughts hidden enabling me to make sense
of my reality and situation
Poetry became my companion on my most
lonely days and nights
It found me I never found it
It came to me I never came to it
And that will always be a mystery to me
Poetry has never left me alone, never
It was my medication and strengh
combined with music It lifted me up to heaven
I used  it to fight and defend myself
This is what God gave me
Communication through Poetry
I BELIEVE. 

Sometimes Im not able to say something
until I write it down first,
im not the best speaker in the world
I cant always express myself verbally on spot
My thoughts are deep and locked up alot

Im humble ask anyone who knows me
but when I write poetry im the lyricist
like Vybz Kartel said
I continue to get better as I pour out my mind
 As I write I leave my troubles behind
I dont need pay or money
I dont have to be rewarded I  already am
Just let me share how I started to write.


Mythical_Poet
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