Peculiar Child

What has school done for me except bring
pain and misery. I never did fit in.
Who were my friends in school I never
did have many, maybe two if any.
Why did I feel like such a lonely kid
why did I isolate myself from reality.
Why were my grades never so good except in
poetry and English, I never like Sciences
I hated Math, I couldn't tolerate it.
Why was I average as a child, introverted.
Why am I the way I am- why is summer hot?
Why was I this shy, why does time go by?
Why was I so sensitive, so emotional and antisocial
Why was I so quiet.
Tell me why am so sensitive and ask so much questions
my emotions is the hardest task I ever had to manage
My teachers said Im lazy and eat too much food
but im not trying to be lazy im trying to be good
Im trying to be perfect and not do what I think inside
from myself and reality am trying to hide.
Was always willing, they took advantage of this
still nobody knew me, Maybe one or two close friends.
Reading was hard but spelling was easy.
Use to daydream alot so they said to pull up my socks
never got into fights except one time without warning


Why did no one pay attention to me, teach me
Teacher teacher why are you shouting at me?
I was attentive but the whole class was noisy.
Its clear that nobody understood me, gentle me
awards day in primary was my worst memory
nobody listened, saw or heard me. I want award too!
I must be a ghost cause no one knew me.
A peculiar child, unusual child, solitary child
curious child, average, average.
My two worse days- awards day and graduation.
Was I stupid for never seeing an A
I Was never an A student SO how did I make it?
A VERY peculiar child I was and still am.
As a child I had a wild imagination, strange too.
Before the age of ten I thought an angel fed me cookies
I would see objects in the clouds forming, why?
I had dreams but not many. One was very scary
and the other was less scary.
At one age I thought Jesus was coming and ran
to tell my mother.
In school I was always left handed, teased and
bullied sometimes. I dont know why. But I was shy.
Why was I this way, I really want to know
cause nothing was wrong with me, honestly




So school has done nothing for me, really
I learn differently, I ask too many questions
My head in the clouds, my body in a chair
Sometimes I use to think why am I here
im so bored I get so depressed sitting this test
sporadic thoughts, unpredictable like weather
I sometimes wonder if im in control of this ship.
I feel too much I let people too close to me
I trust too much, am innocent to reality
im too kind and them im way too mean
Im selfish, unusually strange and mythical
my temperament is a secret I had better keep
my behavior is kind, gentle, my bipolar story
Was a very quiet child who never fit in
making friends was hard for me
I somehow felt like nobody liked me
Hated going to school, but went anyway
took alot of bullshit and ate it silently
often my anxiety would kill me slowly.
At 17 I had my first emotional breakdown
This continued for years until I learned to cope
The ups and downs, the highs and lows
The voices were few, the dreams were too
I felt like a burden to my parents and everyone
I wanted to run away but to where?
I did my best in school and never dropped out
I learned to cope with the stress, the tests
Eventually got better. My story.

Mythical_Poet- 1st draft