Is It Just Me Or Am I Crazy

IS IT JUST ME OR AM I CRAZY?

Of course im scared of weed, im very scared. Just take one look at me and you'll see somethings not quite right. I put my personality and style into every one of my poems. Whoever finds me finds gold.I thank God for giving me Poetry. He said, "here, use this to cope". So Im not gonna play Russian roulette with mary j. Na. What for? I already got those symptoms. I ques...

tion myself everyday.I cant explain how I write a full poem effortlessly in 5 minutes with tears comin down my face and im shivering as high as a mother******. 

 

Wow. I swear I dont drink wine. Still I cant explain voices? How can I explain dreams? My heart bleeds.I cant explain these depressions followed by these highs- its very humbling. How can pain feel so good?! Im not in control. Dear God I hope im not possessed! Na. Its more than that. Im handicapped.

Mentally challenged. Sometimes I stutter, but I dare you to read my stuff. Im LEFT HANDED and the world is blind.

I think in poetry, write in poetry, I cant talk without rhyming something.

Go ahead and Laugh! You mean to tell me that all these things happen to you because of your left hand?

Exactly. And God got me at age 9. Before I knew myself. Before I did anything. I was baptized at 9. Did HE know something I didnt?

Of course HE did. HE knew my very nature! If I wasn't picked up at nine I may neva have had a chance. I see that now. I still have a chance. Im being real.

Where would I be if I neva got baptized at nine. Knowing myself quite well, I would say. I may have skipped college. Become a junkie. Definately would be promiscuous & HIV +. Probably be dead from smokin or alcohol consumption. Id be your average madman. I dont know. I can only speculate.

I keep thinkin of that day I went down in water. I was only 9! I never knew what I was doing. But I believed. It could very well be the reason why im grounded today. I will not redo my baptism. Na. Now way. But im glad I did it early before I became stubborn.

Im on the right path

Mythical_Poet