Walking Solo

Do you know the enemy?
Its a jungle out there
stay close to home or face a nightmare
Survival is the name of the game so play
there are rules and levels- its all shady.
Few people are the only demons did you know.
Not all for some are angels- it may not show.
If I said I dont believe the Bible
would you condemn me?
If I said it was a trick
would you defend me?
If I said- you must study it
would you think me confused
a part of life is to pick and chose.
If I said be faithful who would say good
If I said be strong- you know you should
If I said fight, would you pick a gun
would you stand with me or would you run.
If I said its over- now what?
It dont make sense.
I know im not dumb, im just scared.
Im not a man just because of a beard
Theres a time when you're right
then you know you must fight.
The world is behind me, no lie
im on another level- goodbye
I walk these streets alone.
Even freedom has a price- loneliness.
Nothing lasts forever- it hurts
things are not what they seem
love is all about pain
fear is a bully that mistreats you
I cant escape this hole, these people
that want me captured or killed
Im not schizo or maybe I am
im just me, hope you understand.
I walk solo
Its a blessing and curse
Im deeply misunderstood in this verse.
I have no voice
Its all a lie.
Im one in this room
thinking my thoughts through, oh
What am I to have me do.
I walk  only-
 with nobody but me
I talk to myself privately.
am I a normal human being?
You may think im crazy- come again
You may think im fine- no
you may think im okay- im not.
Its much deeper than that
think twice before you judge me, like
You dont know how deep the well runs
you dont know how to play the game
you dont know how to make sense
You cant find a crowd to shout and play
time is a still and moving very slowly
depression kicks in- now its time to go.
You fight to stay alive- the game is just a killer
for no mere mortal can resist the evil of the thriller

Mythical_Poet- UNEDITED VERSION